I know that the world continues to have vile things happen everyday. But I meant that I personally read blogs and indie news sources everyday to keep knowing, to keep aware and not get out of touch. So many people just don’t pay attention. Even if I know whats happening is horrible, I read to be better informed and not to be complacent.

so its not that I’m shocked because something bad is happening. As a feminist, I know its not NEW. But I’m constantly shocked and outraged at how digusting it aLWAYS is. Every new story piles on this weight of awareness of it (which sometimes motivates me to go out and take more action when and where I can) and sometimes have to stop reading for a while and disengage because when it comes to the rape cases, I can’t walk around in my life feeling that level of outraged and depressed about it all the time. I need to take a break from it, recollect and then rally all my hopefulness for change together with what I can do about it. (which too often feels like an overwhelming nothing).

This world is no different than it ever has been. The only difference is that now we hear about all of it.

though i’ve learned i can’t read through all the examples – it’s too debilitating.

Its a really really digusting state of things, when I need to induce a news/blog fast and just not read anything for the next few days, just in order to function in my one life without uncontrollable rage and depression that is caused by reading such items.

Seriously. I want to know whats going on in the world. I want to know the ugly reality and to stay aware and vigilant, so I can keep trying to find ways to fight. Its just so constant.

And I don’t feel like I even read/learn/do enough… all the time. I can’t imagine what it takes to be you and keeping on top of all this information all the time, to post and make us aware.

Thank you. But also… I’m sorry that you have to do it. I will be back next week to catch up on posts when I have the stomach for it again.

(goes to hide under covers).